To my sister, Shannon

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To my sister, Shannon

Post by Barbies are Evil » Mon Jan 21, 2008 6:17 pm

Look, i'm writing in a pen thats your favorite color! It's so hard to explain how I feel about you, how I FELT about you. Seeing your pictures is so hard, cause i'm so confused. I guess being confused is a bit better than being angry, or depressed, but at the same time, I think i could deal better if I knew WHAT to be. How could you have been so stupid to go back to him? He was KILLING you! If you were still around, I bet I would still hate you. I bet you would make me even more dead set on moving in with Samantha, more dead set on leaving this house, this enviornment, HERE. I know you would disapprove of my choices, but then again, that would be nothing new. I'm not confused about my future, i'm confused about my past and I fear that if I don't figure out my past, my future has no chance. And I know if you were here, you'd just tell me i'm being a dumbass, you never understood me. You know, this is the first time i've written you EVER, let alone since you've died. I know your looking down, disgusted with the Jamie-Brian situation, angry at Kerry's doctor, and proud of mom for going back to work. I wonder what you'd think of me, then again, I wonder why i'm even thinking about it, if I WOULD even care. I wonder why I wrote this, I should be studying.
TJ[10:13 PM]: no not really..... it's all so.... like wow..... screw steps, you took a fuckin jet pack and strapped it on yourself and rocketed your way forward (thats my big bro)







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Tomorrow I will change



And today won't mean a thing



I'm a bitch, I'm a tease



I'm a goddess on my knees



When you hurt, when you suffer



I'm your angel undercover



I've been numb, I'm revived



Can't say I'm not alive



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Re: To my sister, Shannon

Post by udontno » Mon Jan 21, 2008 11:05 pm

Aw, I'm sorry that you lost your sister. I wish I knew what to say. If you ever want to talk about it, I'd be happy to listen.
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Re: To my sister, Shannon

Post by .Infinity. » Thu Jan 31, 2008 10:45 pm

I'm very sorry for your loss, Erin. *hugs*

I think that you wrote this because it's been on your mind for a while; it's been there and you needed to get it out. I know how difficult it can be to keep all thoughts and feelings locked up, it's definitely not easy.



In my opinion, though, writing about this is a very good thing for you to be doing. The fact that you're talking about this will let you get it out, it may possibly even help you figure out all of the confusion. Whether you write about it in a journal, through poems, letters or stories, please continue expressing your thoughts and feelings. I promise that it will help in the end.



Just know that your future will always have a chance, everything has a chance when the will is there. Figuring out your past will put your mind at ease, though.



Stay strong, Erin. Remember that I'm always here to listen if you ever want to talk about this.

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Post by FranklinF » Sun Feb 03, 2008 3:05 am

erin you never told me you lost your sister... if you need to talk i am here and love you darlin...
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Re: To my sister, Shannon

Post by Barbies are Evil » Sun Feb 03, 2008 3:46 pm

yeah, not something that I share very easily.......
TJ[10:13 PM]: no not really..... it's all so.... like wow..... screw steps, you took a fuckin jet pack and strapped it on yourself and rocketed your way forward (thats my big bro)







And I'm going to extremes



Tomorrow I will change



And today won't mean a thing



I'm a bitch, I'm a tease



I'm a goddess on my knees



When you hurt, when you suffer



I'm your angel undercover



I've been numb, I'm revived



Can't say I'm not alive



You know I wouldn't want it any other way



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Re: To my sister, Shannon

Post by ~Kerri~ » Mon Feb 04, 2008 12:36 pm

Its good your getting your feelings out... even if you aren't quite sure what to feel. I'm sorry for your loss. I'm always here if you wanna talk. <3 *hugs*

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